Day 56- Spring is here!!

Yes! Good news to all the Viennese people among you, the snow is melting, the birds are singing, and the sun is shining bright... because winter is officially (or at least hopefully) over!!!!

And I'm slowly recovering from my illness, with the help of trillion pills per day. God do I love doctors. No really, when you visit a good one, he just gives you the feeling that everything is going to be all right.

Days left: 34

Smylik :))

Day 55- Sway

Ok, I will be short in words, since I have like 40 Celsius temperature, and my hands are shaking too much to write.. The picture was taken this morning. And I guess I should have listened to my mother, and not go out with a t-shirt in the snow. But hey, we all make our little sacrifices to the art :)

 Days left: 35

Smylik

Day 54- Happy Purim

Purim is a really fun Jewish holiday, which is like Halloween, just without the creepy costumes. Basically, everyone dress up, DRINK until they cannot understand or remember anything ( yes, it's a biblical law!!) and have lots of fun! :D

Day 53- Deadly study

No, it's not the hunger speaking... It's the rage after sitting fucking 4 hours, making fucking work break down structure, and still not finishing.

Day 52- Warm tide

And as the sun shone its warm rays of light from the thick layer of the gray, bleak clouds, and lit up the few snow flakes that were left to float in the chilly air, letting them glow in all the colors of the rainbow, I though to myself that spring might be just behind the corner, and those gloomy days of Vienna could be almost over.

I present you, with pride, this double exposure portrait, inspired by the light that Today brought with itself. 

(I am poetic today)

And I actually have the feeling that all the bad and all the complications that myself and the people that are close to me are experiencing now,might soon come to an end. 

So dear fellows, raise your glasses of champagne along with me, and praise the very hopeful commence of a new era. Amen!

Days left: 48

Smylik :)

Day 51- Hiding place

This picture I really like. And it was a very spontaneous idea
I came to the conclusion that the pictures that I like, no matter if they are of a lower quality than the once that I don't like, actually reflect my state of mind and my feelings at the exact moment.
Which I find very interesting..
Now, to the picture!
Lately I'm experiencing a serious overload of things, even though I'm on vacation- language course, preparing to a huge exam, work, general stuff, etc..
And obviously, instead of dealing with them, all I do is hiding somewhere, let the monsters crawl around and hope that they will get bored and leave.

I guess that you would agree with me that this picture is very DISTURBING. But I like it. 

It was surprisingly fun to make the picture, even though it was A LOT of work to do. But it explains amazingly well my thoughts for the last period of time. 

Also, I'm really out of ideas. It's horrible. And i'm so tired of taking a picture every single day. I didn't think it would be so hard to keep up with this project. I really cannot imagine how some people do it for the WHOLE year, its a suicide mission. But I will do my best.. Only 40 days are left!

Good night people, 

Days left: 39

Smylik :)

Day 50- Heads will roll

And sometimes I really want to kill myself.
For many reasons. Because I'm too lazy, because I refuse to understand such simple and obvious things, and do not act according to them. Delaying everything to the very last moment, and then getting really screwed up as a consequence. And screwing other people because of it.
Spending too much time on unuseful things instead on the ones that are required now.
Not dealing with important things, not because I don't care, but because some really dumb part of my brain decided that it's more convenient to simply repress the knowledge about those things and fact.
Forgetting about important people. Not spending enough time with them, and even not giving them explanation why I didn't..as a result they get hurt and turn their backs towards me.
This list can go on and on...

Well, this can be reffered to as the MAIN IDEA of the picture for today. However, due to a serious...well, lack of time (as I said before...KILL!!) i didnt have time to make a proper photoshop. 

Hopefully i'll get my head cleared up very soon, and everything will be alright. 

Good night

DAYS LEFT: 40!!

Smylik :))

Day 49

Today again an IPhone day.. It's just that I've been quite busy today, doing stuff, work, studying...
However, I have a really good idea for tomorrow, lets wait and see how it gets 😊
Today I made some time for myself, some girl time ;)

Ok well, till tomorrow
Smylik

Day 48- Observing

Well, I'm terribly sick.
However, I noticed that I wasn't taking the project very seriously, so with superhuman powers, I tore myself out of the warm, cozy layers of my comfortable bed, and took some damn pictures.
Technically, there is nothing special about this picture. Well, what do you expect from a sick person with super high temperature??
I watched recently a video from some photography seminar, about light, types and usage (extremely interesting and useful), by one of the world top wedding photographers, Jerry Ghionis.
He is great, I find his work very interesting, and he also explains everything in an incredibly clear and non-boring way.
So yeah, I implemented some of his tips in this picture, and I kind of like it :))

So there it is. 

Have a nice week everyone, dont get sick

Days left: 42

Smylik

Day 47- Trapped

You are your worst enemy.
Not the people that are talking behind your back, not your parents, food, politicians etc. Its YOU
But why? We suppose to know what is going on wit ourselves better that anyone else. Understand ourselves, know the reason to our actions? How in the world did our own mind turned into the biggest trap?

In continuation to the last post, which was extremely depressing (and whoever reads it will probably consider sending me to a mental hospital right away...) (so don't read it!)
I want to emphasis the situation that I see myself right now (and basically in many cases in the past few years). Its me trapped by own evil self (int his case behind a mirror), a vicious character that prevents me from acting, at least in the right way for me.
I guess that for me its laziness (or stupidity..). But I'm sure that this situation applies to EACH ONE.
We all have our evil self that puts us behind bars- whether its fear, some phobia, prejudices etc..

And I  wish for everyone here, and me also, to learn how to deal with this things, how to get over those boundaries. To succeed, and kill forever this character, so in wont get to your life ever again.

The picture is from the double self series. 

However, in my imagination it seemed much better. I really would like to repeat this one, once I will become more skilled, have better equipment etc. because it my opinion the idea is really good. 

Well, good night everyone, 

Days left: 43

Smylik 

Day 46- Ignorance

As the semester vacation begins, everyone return to their homes. To their families, brothers, sisters, friends, etc. Unfortunately, I have nowhere to go (long story, legal issues), so I'm staying in Vienna for the whole vacation. 

However, it doesn't mean a good thing necessarily. No, for me right now, it means empty halls. Eco of your own and only foot steps.  Knowing that you are the only one left in your floor. Having an empty room for the whole month. 

I have no idea what is going on with me in the last period of time, but I seem to have lost any purpose in life. Again, a very strange thing to say for a 18 year old girl. 

But seriously. I cant enjoy anything. I don't want anything. I don't want to do anything, to the horrible extinct that I can stay in the bed for the whole day, watching stupid serials in the computer. Not even listening to what the characters are saying. Just staring at the screen. 

Not caring about my family. Ignoring them, like they are just some annoying person that keeps on sending you messages. How is this possible that a person in my age wont miss his mother, not even think about her for more that 2 weeks? 

What is wrong with me? 

I don't have depression. Or any other melancholic psychotic disorders. I want to believe that I have "stupidity" or "laziness". And that I will get out of this very very soon. 

Don't judge me, don't think that I'm miserable or lonely or don't have friends or something like this. I assume that i'm not in a very good place right now, and I need to figure it out on my own. 

Maybe tomorrow will be nicer to me..

Days left: 44 

Smylik

Day 45- Simplicity

Just a happy face after a very good day.
Let's just say that a lot of things worked out today just the way they were supposed to, even more. And I'm very very exhausted (because of doing stuff, not in a negative way) but HAPPY.

And..since i'm feeling that i'm not putting enough effort in the blog lately, here is a bonus picture of how everything was don today.

Good night ppl, 

Love ya all :)))

Days left: 45 (exactly HALF of the project past!!)

Smylik :))

Day 44- Princess

The only reason that I'm uploading a picture from the iPhone is because I really like this pic))
To be honest, it was the first time in my life that I tried such a dress (prom/ wedding super fancy style).
 And I LOVEEED it!!!
It amazing, how it swifts all around you, and the rustle of the material against the floor when you walk and turn around.
Seriously feeling like a princes!!
Yeah, that me being a girl :D
Now where is that special guy that will take me to prom?? Or marry me?? XDDD
Just kidding:))))))

Have a nice week

Smylik

Day 43- 9 lives

Continuing the snow series. Snow really pumps up my creativity
There are 9 faces in the picture, somehow it relates for me with the mystical 9 lives of the cat.
Not that I compare myself with cats. NO, NEVER! Cat's are weird. And scary. Especially with 9 lives.

Nmm...the multiply faces in the picture don't have to be connected literally lives. It could not.. because, well, we don't live forever. However, it does connect in my opinion with different sides of one person. And boy, there are a lot! We treat each person according to one different side of ours. Our closest friends will see probably most of the sides (and from here derives the phrase- to see the true me/you). We will show our enemies our meanest/weakest side. People who we are trying to impress will see the best of us, but will be extremely disappointed to see bad things, after getting used to good only. Etc...

And thats how we live our "9 lives"- in one life span we give life to so many personages inside of us, each one with different goals and preferences..A truly interesting nature of the human kind..

Here. Have a nice week, and enjoy your vacations! (for the students)
Days left: 47

Smylik :)

Day 42- Bursting

People, I'm really really sorry for disappearing for like a week.
It was the final week of the semester, and not only that my brain turned to a green boiling fluid, i also didnt have time practically for ANYTHING! Not starting to talk about pictures.
Of course, i could post an iphone picture, but I hate it.
I believe that I can do better. I KNOW that I can do better, ao in this case, in stead of wasting 7 days on iphone, i prefer no to do anything at all.

And thats it!! It ended!! I'm a FREE person!!!
It took me a lot of time to prepare the photo today, I think it's pretty cool.

I'm happy that the semester is over, because now I will have time for myself, to do some creative and cool things. Put a little more though in the pictures. Go to a photography trip around the city, etc.

So here it is. Besides the light effects, I find it very meaningful. For me it has to do with letting myself loose, and open up to new ideas, Actualize myself..
I hope i will do good on this vacations, and there won't be any more breaks in the project.

Days left: 48

Smylik 

Day 41- philosophy part2

It continues

Day 40- philosophy

Studying for philosophy
Too tired to take a picture of myself, so here is a hand portrait
Days left: 50
Smylik ;)

Day 39- Early Bird

Yeah, today the post is earlier than usual..
The picture was taken at 7 a.m. at the dawn. I had the idea for this picture for approximately 2 and half years. Still, it is not the same as I pictured it, and if I would have an opportunity I will definitely re-shoot it.

I didn't sleep today at all. I was working for the whole night on pictures for work. And thought now i have a very funny feeling of exhaustion plus time moving really fast, and the fact that I have to wait for the evening to finally sleep, I'm really happy that I stayed awake
It was 6:30, and I was listening to music on my computer, all concentrated in photoshop, and when the song ended, in this 2 second gap of silence I suddenly heard birds singing. And when I looked out of the window, it was DAWN.
A really beautiful one. Silence, chilly, fresh air coming out of the window, and the amazing colors of the sun reflecting in the clouds.
I kept sitting on the window long after the camera took the picture, and just admiring all of this together.
On of the best moments of my life in Vienna.

And a song (in my opinion, made just for this kind of silent mornings):
Californication- RHCP

Days left: 51

Smylik :))