Day 9- Happy new year!

People, happy almost new year, may you all enjoy this year as much as you can...I wish you a lot of happiness, joy, health, success, lots of creativity. Don't be afraid to take risks, be spontaneous from time to time, enjoy the small moments, take a small break from everything, be with your family and friends.. Because this is what matters.... Btw, we didn't die this year, as was scheduled, so it is an even bigger reason to party!!! Love you all! -Smylik-

Day 8- just..

Friends, I'm deeply embarrassed to use my iPhone already on the first week (btw, a week passed!! Hurray!!) , but I don't have time at all!!! Promise a nice pic for tomorrow! -Smylik-

Nice to meet you all again, i'm Maria, the reincarnation of the Lohness monster :D

Day 7- Dirty

Wow, last 3 minutes!!

And no..the picture in the post is not that dirty as what you probably think..:D

You know that feeling when you are tired, physically and mentally, after such a long time that you were engaged at some really exhausting activity, you feel all worn out and not fresh and all you want is to, well, literally to be washed, and rest? 

Join the club..

Days left: 83

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 6- Just sleep..

Yeah...I really want to sleep, not much to be said.
And since i'm tired, probably there will be fails in the picture.

And a song for the end..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2oHShap1jM0

Days left: 84

Good night,
Smylik

Day 5- And nevertheless..

My day today evolved a lot of, well..crying, mostly.

In the morning I finally fixed my violin, after a long time of which the strings were broken and I didn't play for a while. And when I was coming back home I suddenly realized how I miss my teacher, and my music school, and the routine of practicing every day and a believe that followed, that my life and future career will be connected to music. And...it didn't happen. And right now, i'm very sorry that it's not like this. 

But nevertheless..it will always, and forever remain me and my precious Lucianna (my violin's name) against the world. 

No matter how i feel, I will always feel better after I will practice. 

The picture was kind of an improvisation. And no, my room is not  that messy, but the thrown cloths and papers symbolize the chaos of the surrounding world. 

I wonder if I succeeded with forwarding this idea. Your opinions are welcomed. 

Days left: 85

Good night, 

Smylik  

Day 4- Detachmant

Hello people..
I finished my "Veronica decides to die", and I had a lot to learn from it, because as a person I find myself very alike to the main character. Veronica lived her life as a closed person, not letting anyone close, who build a fake image of herself and  instead of living a full life she would just stick to this boring image. And then she killed herself, didn't work out very well and she got into a mental hospital, where she was told that her suicide attempt ruined her heart and she had left a week to live.
And then in this week she discovers herself as she truly is, rebels against everything and everyone..and.......i'm not gonna tell you the rest because it would be a spoiler.

Anyway, I had the idea for the portrait only when I finished the book.

Changes can be hard, any new decision is hard. Environment, work, country, even decide on meeting new people. 

But this is what life is about. We must not protect ourselves from the unknown, on the contrary, we must run into it with all our power. 

It won't be easy. And most of the time the change will not go smooth, but the new environment will meet you as an enemy, with swords pointing against you. But that cannot stop or prevent our actions. 

We must detach ourselves from the known, comfortable and stable, take a deep breath and dive into the new reality. Because otherwise, we will be a bunch of stuck, boring beings. 

Why detachment? Because before any physical change, you must detach firstly your soul, mentally accept that you are moving forward. 

Even death is like this. I think, in a way, that death evolves some courage inside it. Like, this is one of the most important changes in our life, and the act of accepting that you are going to die, letting go of whatever keeps you here and letting your soul detach and swift to the next realm...not every one is capable.

So be strong, my friends. Embrace changes. 

(I am not high, i'm inspired!) 

Days left: 86

Good night, 

Smylik 

Day 3- Veronica

Good evening everyone!
Today my picture is not very christmassy...
You know, sometimes I have the feeling that I'm just a boring, unimportant character in my own story, that just gazes on the whole event from somewhere behind the scene..
Like I'm just watching my life passing by, and not doing anything. Though it's a very unusual thing to say when you are 18, but still..
And maybe it is just the shitty, foggy weather of Vienna, or the lack of sun, or the book that I was reading today- "Veronica decides to die" by Paulo Coelho, speaking. (btw, very very recommended!!)

Now, this is me, literally gazing on the cars passing by from the metro station. It's a reflection, and I really like all the lines that are reflecting in the window, because I think they enhance the idea of  a person trapped behind some border.
Also my reflection overlays a bridge, which is very static, dull and dark, in comparison to the dynamic cars, full of light and movement and whatever.

So, that was me bullshitting about photography, another yet discovered image of myself.

Days left: 87

Good night, dear people,
Read the book, it is very good and gives a lot to think about. Worse case scenario, you will end up like me, gazing on cars from the metro.

Till tomorrow,
Smylik :))

Day 2- A very Christmas post

So...Merry Christmas everyone!!!
I wish you all lot and lots of joy, happiness, health, love, success and creative souls! :D
Anyway, I was trying something today, didn't work out quite as I wanted..but it's still ok.
God, I wish I had a tripod!
(Maybe Santa will visit me, and in like 6 days i'll wake up to a brand new tripod? ahm..ahmm...just mentioning..)

 So here it is....now that I look at it the colors seem a little weird..but there is no time to change.

Days left: 88

Until tommorow,
Smylik

Day 1- Introducing myself

So, I'm very very glad finally start my project!
This is me, Maria (a.k.a. Smylik), and today is my first day out of 90 days of self-portraits.
Nmm....I don't really have anything special to say about this picture, just a simple portrait (with a messy background and a quite tired smile, since I just came from work..promise tp clean the surrounding next time!!)

I really hope that I will finish this project successfully (since I have a horrible tendency not to finish most of the things I start), and of course, learn from it a lot!

Days left: 89

Good night, till tomorrow! 

Smylik :)

Project description

Hello dear readers,

This is my first post, and first time i'm writing in blogger (so don't be too harsh on me ;P )

My name is Maria, a.k.a Smylik, i'm 18 years old, a business administration student, playing the violin and starting as a photographer. 

Which is the reason why i'm here. Let me tell you my story:

So, a year and half ago, I, suddenly to myself, discovered that I really love photographing. And in a rush to fulfill my sudden dream, I worked the whole summer, collected some serious money and bought my first DSLR (back then I was really proud of the fact that I didn't borrow any money from my mom).

After a week (or so) I moved to Austria, Vienna, and started my studies in the university. And now  i'm partially working as an event photographer. Yay me! 

Anyway, events are great and all, but i have the feeling that i'm not developing in any creative way, and after all, I cannot be 100% creative when shooting in events. 

That's why I decided to start this 90 Day Project- 90 days of self portraits, which supposedly will develop my photographing skills. 

So at first I was like, "it's soo narcissistic to take pictures of myself for 3 month..lets take pics of flowers or something..", but NO. Flowers are awesome and all, but i believe that auto portraits are THE way to develop.

Because, you see, when you are thinking of yourself, you see your simple picture like everyday in the mirror.  

What I'm doing is challenging myself to twist my imagination and see myself from different perspectives for 3 months. 

Let's set some rules: 

1. A self portrait must be submitted every day until 12 o'clock. 

2. Doesn't have to be Photoshopped

3.  Must be taken from any electronic device with  camera

4. I must be the one to press the button of the shutter. 

I think that's all...I really don' t know yet how is it going to work, and If i'm going to succeed.. but I really want to. 

Guys, critiques are more than welcomed (after all, this is the only way to study).Share this blog. If you have friend photographers, you are one, or just want to write your opinion, PLEASE DO! 

Starting date: 23 December, 2012

    (just in case the world is going to end two days before xD )

So, Challenge Accepted,

Until next time

SMYLIK