Day 38- Chillin'

Thoughts for this day:
-Drinking in the middle of the day is a truly amazing thing, that people often underestimate.
-A sunny weather will occur always when you have an exam, and turn grey again the moment when you finish writing it
-In the third semester of your studies in the university, you will probably loose any study motivation.
So much, that even when you have the exam from last year, you will be too lazy to study the answers.
-I don't know why, but I really want to dive into a plastic-balls pool!

Days left: 52

Have a nice weekend!!
Smylik :))

Day 37- The watcher

No actual story or past thoughts behind it..
Though I would like to raise an idea here..
I guess that most of us have someone that constantly watches us. May it be a parent, a lover, a friend or some artificial presence of a departed one.
But they watch for us anyway, sometimes secretly sometimes exposed.
And even if some of their actions are not in our direct best intentions, or it offenses us, we must bare in mind that they love us and it is for our benefit.
And sometimes it is best to have dark and obscure people in your life but to know that they will do anything for you, that the open and nice, who will stab you in your back the moment you turn around.

Days left: 53

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 36- I'm fabulous!

Am i NOT??
Look, observe this fabulous and grandiose  MUSTACHE!! And the glasses! And the Sherlock, post modern, village chique hat!

This, and much more, you can get by just opening the not-pretentious-at-all Dell Webcam Central application on your dell computer!
AMAZING

Yeah...and sometimes, even the most fabulous of them all, need to get some rest.
1.5 weeks left till the exams are over! Carry on!

Days left: 54
Smylik

Day 35- Put aside

I understood that one must fight all his life. Not only to achieve some goal, but to keep the ones that he already achieved. Anything that he has, in general. Because if you will look aside for just one second, you will discover that at the moment you turned back you already started to loose this thing.
With physical possessions, you must always take care of them, so they won't break or get stolen.
With skills and knowledge, you must keep practice  in order to never forget.
And with people (unfortunately, also) friends, beloved and family....you must prove yourself to them all the time. Do something that in their interest only. Make them believe that you are still worthy of them.

For those that are living, or lived, in LBS, yes, this is the storage room. 

And I guess that a more appropriate name for the picture would be "put to storage" but I didn't want to be too obvious. 

And I decided that I should get awarded for all the stunts that I perform in order to get a picture. 

In this one, for example, this metal ledge almost crashed on the floor, together with me inside it. 

4 TIMES. 

Award,  medal, someone?? :D

Days left: 55

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 34- no name

.......

Day 33- Overdose

I was visiting my friend in the hospital today, he had his appendix cut out yesterday.
And I decided that this would be an opportunity to make a photo outside of my room, so I took the camera with me.
The picture is shit. Don't bother looking at it. The thing is that i'm really embarrassed and not comfortable with taking pictures of myself outdoors. So I was giving my friend to hold the camera, pushing the button and running out of there after 2 seconds.
So obviously my mind was so distracted about thinking of possible ways out of there, that I didnt spend any time on thinking about the perspectives, lighting and even not settings.

However, I would like to say few words about hospitals.
I hate them, I really do, even though I wanted (and still would like) to become a doctor.
Hospitals are truly an interesting place. You can discover there so much about life- if you are lying in the hospital you can see who your friends and family are, who really cares about you and who was just bluffing. If you are a visitor, you will understand how much the person to whom you are coming matters to you.
When we are in a hospital we see how big is life. How insignificant are humans. You can understand what is justice- people are dying no matter if they are rich or poor, politicians or sellers. However, you will be disappointed to see that even in such matter as health and saving lives, money and status DOES matter, because if you have money you will be treated better, even if you don't deserve it, and even if there is someone that needs this help more than you.
And a doubt about the existence of god. Because there shouldn't be such department as children oncology. Nowhere. Ever.
And learn to appreciate life and health. Because it is so embarrassing to be in such a helpless condition, not to be able to control yourself, trust some people that you don't know to touch you, to make for you the most private things.
It is a surreal place between life and death. And it is so surreal not because people are dying there, but because so much truth is uncovered there, more that we used to that it seems not natural.

Days left: 57

Stay healthy, and good night
Smylik 

Day 32- Taking break

Literally, taking break before 2 weeks of SUPER intensive study..
Have a nice weekend everyone!
Days left: 58

Smylik

Day 31- Embrace

I hate how it happens every single day that i', trying to make a photo, that I have an amazing idea in my head, and then because of not enough equipment, or too small space, I need to change it.
Like, I have TONS of ideas, that everyday I must give up..it's devastating!!
For example, today's photo- I had 2 (!!) amazing ideas, and none of them happened!

But the good thing from all this, that I learn to adjust, and to think about new things really fast. And this is more important in my opinion.

And this is another improvisation. God, how I need to change locations from time to time..

Days left: 59

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 30- Dive

I am so happy to declare that today passed exactly THIRD from my project!!
I am proud of myself that i didn't give up yet, and I'm feeling that i'm actually getting better!
And also, somehow i feel this project is influencing my behavior in everyday life. I'm becoming more self aware.. I don't know...but then again, maybe it's just me.
I'm really happy also because I get supportet A LOT  from my friends, a lot of people are asking me about the project and I see that they are really interested in it.
They only thing that is missing, is opinions and critiques. I believe that I can really benefit from it, so i would be very glad if you could leave a comment with personal opinions about picture, that would really help me!

Today's photo...a sudden improvisation during a "study" session in the nearby McDonald's.
Oh McDonald's, what are you doing to me....stooooop.... (a Russian meme)

I don't know..I'm just tired...and hoping the next two weeks to pass really fast.

Days left: 60!! :D

Good night,
Smylik

Day 29- Determination

Well, the picture today is a total contrast from the yesterday one.
Today I want to present a strong person, a determinant, one that knows what he wants and what he needs, and knows how do demand it and how to achieve it.
This person is a character, he is not afraid to stand for himself and to fight for his goals. His objectives are very high, sometimes even not achievable, but somewhere he knows that with enough hard work he will be able to accomplish everything.
However, it's not me in this picture. Physically yes, but the person that i described above, is not me. Once I was like this, but this person is long gone...

The only thing that is present from all that I described, is pure determination. 

I like the described person. And I was very stupid of not liking him before. But now I want him back, and I'm going to work in order to achieve this. 

And for less intensive things: we had a VERY big presentation today in the university. Groups prepared a research report, and the lector prepared the class like a press conference! With snacks and blue (we don't have red) carpet and stuff!

And we all dressed really fancy. One of the benefits of studying in a business school. :D

Andd..I'm totally in love with "studio"-like portraits. i find it very cool to set the lightening and stuff, and it really makes you think before taking the shot- the angle, amount of light, settings, etc. 

I like the dramatic lightening of this picture, the shadows (even though they are not flattering) enhance the main idea. 

Days left: 61 (tomorrow exactly third of the project will pass!!)  

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 28- Silence

And as promised..a normal picture.
It's the first time I actually tried to do a studio-like portrait, and actually succeeded!!!
Before the picture, I would like to state that there is absolutely NO attempt to insult or to harm any society segment. The props in the picture are used explicitly for artistic needs.

Lately I have the feeling like i'm not heard. And it's not on the level of wanting to express my political opinion or something. It's on the personal level. 

No one want or interested to hear what I'm saying. Like i'm not important. Like i'm not a human being. Like i don't have a fucking mouth. 

I'm generally a quite person, i don't shout, don't argue. But you could expect from people (moreover from friends) that know that you are like this to give you the opportunity to talk when you are in the state of it. 

And when they don't- it is just so frustrating and agonizing, you feel like you have a beast inside you and you cant let it out, because you need to hold yourself calm. 

I really can't understand the Arab women, and women from patriarchal cultures. Where do they find the strength to hold still for their hole life, suffer all the insults and just be silent. 

Days left: 62

Good night,

Smylik

Day 27- lets get digital ( iPhone day)

You can save yourself the reading of this post after the heading....it's another shitty iPhone picture
I feel like my life in the past few days summarized to computer- bed.
Since the big managerial acc. exam is tommorow, today the "bed" variable is deleted from the equation
And that's how you get an absolute ratio instead of relative ratio! (See, I'm not completely stupid!!) :D
Amayway, tomorrow ill think of a compromise

Day 26- iPhone <3

I am really grateful that I have an iPhone. It makes life much more easier...
Oh, why can't we transfer knowledge from a device to our brain? It would save so much time

Day 25- View

Imagine waking up one beautiful morning, looking out of the window and seeing the whole ground under you covered with silky snow.
Now imagine lying in it, even better, be covered in it from  tip to toes, dazzled from the rays of sun reflecting on every single snow flake.

Yeah, the SNOWAGANZA continues for another day of the project!!
I just can't have enough of it :DD
(enjoy the nice pictures, because the next few weeks will be filled with i-phone pics)

Days left: 65

Good night, have a nice weekend!

Smylik :D

Day 24- Narnia

Once upon a time there was a kingdom, in a far far away land, named Vienna, and somewhere in the depth of that kingdom, layed a castle  And that castle was very ancient, and full of legends and stories, that lived among its walls.
It was named after its last possessor, the Great Lord Lauder. But the locals peasants used to call it with the shortcut LBS. Back in the days, when it was only build, it served as a gymnasium for youngsters, in which the Lord Lauder was a lector.
 And the locals were afraid of it. They had so much awe in their hearts that they were even telling their children horror stories, setting the bonfire of terror on fire inside their little, trembling hearts.
But the mansion of Lauder WAS terrifying. For a horrible CURSE was set on it by an ancient, evil witch!
According to the ancient curse, all the ghosts of the students of lord Lauder, and his great ghosts herself will be trapped FOREVER in the mansion , and the never unfading freezing cold of their immortal, heartless ghosts will bring an eternal winter on the mansion. A winter, so piercing and frosty, that no living soul will ever have the courage to enter the mansion,without killing herself, in order to break the curse.

Will be continued.
Why the story? Well, yesterday at approximately 11:30 p.m. it started to snow in Vienna. And it didn't stop...until 4 p.m..today.
And there is so much snow!!!! It's like whipped cream covering everything! And it's so deep, and white, and amazing!!! And I sound like a retarded!! But I don't care!!

Anyway, in the garden next to our dormitory there is a garden, with lanterns, and now after everything is covered with snow it looks really like fucking Narnia! :DD

Days left: 66

Good night, may you all have a very nice snow fight with your fellow peasants!

Smylik

Day 23- A bite

I really love snow. Even if it involves falling into it and lying there with sleeveless dress. Or making a snowman (which no one agreed to make with me, btw), or throwing snowballs at random people 10 times per day.
And I really hate that people criticize me or laugh at me because of this. Like, there is nothing wrong being a bit childish for few days. And i'm pretty sure that most of the people really want to do it also, so if you're not brave enough to make a fool  of yourself (though in my opinion it's not foolish at all) don't go after and criticize others for doing the thing that you crave for.

Anyway, the picture is a snowhite theme, a must at times of snow XD

Days left: 67

Good evening, 

Smylik :))

Day 22- The study season is officially open

Such a long heading..
Now, from the sarcastic tone of the heading I think it is very easy to understand that there would be no normal picture today
That's right, its iPhone day!!!
The snow is still holding btw. No one agreed to build a snowman with me. Life sucks...

Days left: 68
Good night, Smylik :)

Day 21- Snow!!

I don't have much time left for writing...but today when I woke up, the whole gardet was covered with a thick, amazing layer of clear and white snow..
And how could I not do something with it??

And a song that really connects with the weather, Back interpretation by the Piano Guys, they are simply genious!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ry4BzonlVlw&list=UUmKurapML4BF9Bjtj4RbvXw

Days Left: 69

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 20- La Boheme

Tomorrow I have a french test. I SUCK at french. Really..

The only good thing that got out of all those studies is that I get to listen to lots of french songs. 

And one of them inspired me to this photo- La Boheme by Charles Aznavour. I really love this song, it's about the Bohemian period, and it's beautiful. 

I'm not sure whether the clothes That I wear are truly bohemian style, but it's the only "suitable" that I have. 

Not much to say..but i wish i would live in that period, those people knew how to appreciate and enjoy life. 

This is my favorite version of the song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgU66s8ElrA

Days left: 70

Have a nice week, 

Smylik

Day 19- Vingardium Leviosa!

So, I am very happy to declare that today my portrait doesn't seem like I'm constantly consuming Heroine.
It's a levitation photo, which actually continues a series of likewise picture of me and my friend that I did year ago. But this time it was much harder, because there was no one to help me or to press the button in the right moment.
Needless to say that I was freezing to death.

In my opinion, this genre of levitation photography is really awesome. 

Basically, its people that jump in a graceful way that looks like they were just, well, flying by. I'm not very graceful, unfortunately, but I think this picture passes. 

And you can play with backgrounds and props, make the picture interesting and intriguing. 

I like the picture a lot. Today the weather was dry, with a bit of snowflakes, which created more ice that snow. And those little flakes that were flying out of my window inspired me also. 

The background bothers me a bit, I would prefer a clean sky, a field or something. 

But university life doesn't allow you to go further than the garden next to your dormitory. 

So here you go. 

Days left: 71

Have a nice evening, 

Smylik

Day 18- Chica Loca

I think that someone started to sip me something in the food! It's not funny, where the hell do I get this ideas for pictures?

A friend of mine once told me (he was drawing graffiti) that there are a lot of dark, melancholic drawings on the streets because it is much easier to think about something like this than of a cheerful graffiti. 

Is it the same with me? I just can't think about a cheerful thing, a happy state of mind? Or am I seriously going crazy? 

And a suitable song: 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2cXDgFwE13g&list=ALYL4kY05133rC1pV-Fma3i1EA8vX6xi4W

Days left: 72

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 17- Fixed

Ok, i'm warning you guys, this photo is EXTREME, and very very disturbing.
And I was thinking a lot before uploading it, but eventually my friends convinced me that it's cool.
Well, I'm not sure that cool meaning people jumping scared from you when they see you in the hall.
So prepare yourself...

Oh GOD, it's so horrible!!!

This was what inspired me to do the photo:

http://bigpicture.ru/?p=357175

Anyway, the thoughts behind it? Many things in life break, whether it's your fault or not. Or someone were a bitch and broke it on purpose. 

And at first it would seem as the worse thing in the world. but it's not. 

Because there is....DUCT TAPE!! And you can fix stuff with it!!!

Or in my case..you cant XDD

Please don't be afraid from me next time you'll see me! I'm much prettier in reality :D

Days left: 73

Hopefully rest of the days would be prettier..

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 16- Schizophrenia

Well, today I had few moments in which I really wanted to kill myself.
And not because i'm letting my emotions too much (because usually i'm a very calm person). Often, when I see people who perform something better than me (usually people who are close to me) I become really mad t myself for not being like this.
Of course, somewhere I understand that maybe they are better than me in some things, but they cannot do some things that I know. But it doesn't help to the general feeling.

Yeah..sorry for the over-expressed emotions XDD 

I personally very like this picture, also I had this idea for a VERY long time, and I'm happy to finally implement it to life. 

It's supposed to be the more responsible and serious part of me, which is also the darker (the one that it easier for it to hurt other people) which is chasing with a lot of anger after the actual me. 

It may be funny-ish, but don't be mistaken, there are A LOT of emotions and thoughts behind it. (that I don't express because I can't, and because it's not the place). 

Days left: 74

Good night, people

Smylik

Day 15- Photoshop addicted

Well, there are some morning in every girl's (and boys also) life, in which she would give everything for Photoshop functions would be in real life also XD

Haha, have a nice day

Days left: 75

Smylik

Day 14- What she seen

Guys, whats up??

Let me begin with saying that I imagined it totally different. The first idea was that I was standing in front of some dark, smoky thing, which is supposedly attacking me, and before me would be someone or something (light, for example) that is protecting me. 

Now, how it went wrong? Not proper lightening, and weird people who broke into my community room and then I couldn't shoot there anymore. Tough university life. 

But I think I still got something. And I still look terrified. 

Well, what I see in this picture is a person who looks into his future and he is terrified, not necessary because it is bad, but because he is not ready, or the though about many aspects that might change is frightening. 

But from the other side, the future can be seen as rays of the light coming out of the window (which is positive) and on the contrary there is the present covered with this edgy texture and darkness. 

Main point- strive to the future!

Days left: 76

Good night, 

Smylik

Technically day 13- back

Due to some personal issues and a serious lack of time I had to stop the project. Which why the project will be extended in additional two days.
I think it is needless to say that I'm really sad and frustrated about it, and also I am mad at myself and disappointed that I got to this kind of point..
As I said earlier, I have the tendency to leave things in the middle, when I see that can't handle them, but this time I WILL NOT. Even though it is hard to maintain it, and even though I will have to upload some of them from the iPhone (which came extremely useful) the project will continue.

This one was taken in a really nice cafe on the Ring (sort of the centre) in Vienna, I went there with my mom before she came back to Israel. 

And visits of mothers officially should be reduced to 3-4 days, more than this is already too annoying. 

But I really enjoyed it (since it was only 4 days ;D )

Days left: 77

good night people, 

Smylik 

Day 12- Pieces

My mother came to a visit in Vienna for couple of days, so I took her to see some of  the Christmas decorations in the center. Needless to say she was totally amazed.
We also went into the main Swarovski store, which is filled with crystal installations, generally really cool items that they sell. I think it's amazing that in just few years some dude turned a simple glass work into a fashion and art. Beautiful art, I must say.
Anyway, there was a stunning installation of pieces of crystal, as you see in the picture, on the whole wall, and stupid me was too lazy to take the camera with me. So I instagrammed it.

It reminds me a bit of Picasso and his cubism and the broken women paintings.

However, I don't feel broken at all, on the contrary, I'm very happy. Renewed, cheerful, etc. And maybe it has to do with the fact that my mom is here? Probably yes. 

Yeah, I can keep saying 24/7 that I don't miss my mother, that I can keep up very well without seeing her for ages or with talking to her only once in 2 weeks. But it's bullshit. 

I LOVE HER. 

So yeah, three cheers for our parents. :))))))

Days left: 78

Good night, 

Smylik

Day 11- A moment

Today, I finally had time.
Time to sleep really good and wake up at 12. Then just spend some quality time in facebook (and i'm not addicted!) and on the computer in general.
To go eat out. To enjoy the small pieces of the blue sky peeping out of the grey clouds. To enjoy the sun. Look right into the rays of sun, let it dazzle you, and enjoy the warmth of the light on your face. To explore all the directions that the light goes when you make your eyes smaller.
To feel the cold wind on your face. Not to frown about it, but to really feel every touch, and realize that it's really gentle, and actually not that cold.
To stop on the street, sit on a random bench and smoke a cigarette like a normal person, and not to be afraid that you will be late. Wait for the next train, instead of walking, because my legs are tired from the walking.
To walk. Really slowly, that you actually feel the speed of the surrounding world.

It was amazing. 

When i was taking this picture, I am more than sure that i broke like 3-4 laws. And a lot of people were staring at me. And my camera almost fell into a hole. It was weird.
I wanted to show a person that stops, and just gazes. When in his both sides there are unstopping movement, both cars and people, and he just stops, because he wishes to.
Without caring about opinions or consequences.

Days left: 79

Good night,
Smylik

Day 10 -New begginings

So, the new year has started, and as I posted yesterday, I wish you all the best this year, a lot of creativity, to enjoy the moments, etc.
My picture today represents literary a new beginning  an old person exiting and a new one coming in, with a smile on his face.

Days left: 80

Smylik